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The Fear of Knowing

The silence of your room is so loud I can hear it from across the country. Every toss and turn you makes pushes me farther off the bed and away from your heart. Swallowing what keeps me sane, I kneel down on the floor and look up to my ceiling for answers. All I see is white.

I snatch my keys from my purse, purposely leaving behind the ones to my heart. Stick into ignition and turn. If only I knew how to turn back.

This can't be the end. It can't be the end. This long stretch of road is paved with good intentions and leads nowhere but south. I think I'll pass my destination and drive straight into the ocean. Hesitate. Do I have a destination?

Palm trees and beach houses are all I see when I close my eyes. When they open, wind from cracked windows blows and stings. I cry. He's not the one I miss, it's me.

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